I really relate to this quite a bit. I had a very similar arc. Also I have a child as well and having him changed me so deeply, and I cannot give him enough to pay him back for his sweetness. It's so funny that we get so lost in the pain and dark parts of life that we forget that things can be different. When you start to feel happy again it feels like the blood reaches the brain for the first time in a long time, suddenly things make a lot more sense.
I really relate to this quite a bit. I had a very similar arc. Also I have a child as well and having him changed me so deeply, and I cannot give him enough to pay him back for his sweetness. It's so funny that we get so lost in the pain and dark parts of life that we forget that things can be different. When you start to feel happy again it feels like the blood reaches the brain for the first time in a long time, suddenly things make a lot more sense.